where should I start now
saying sorry seems ridiculous
kill me lpz xD
lol I wonder if anyone is even going to read this #fml
It has been kinda more than f*cking three months that I needed to upload those five christmas requests and during this three months I found myself always drawing n shit and watching tutorials and interviews by amazing artists and trying to punch human anatomy into my brain and forgetting everything around me except drawing.
karma hit me in my arse
my school grades are worse than ever before and my class teacher had to talk to my parents, my room turned into a second garbage basement, my social life is as eventfull as the brain activities of a toast aaaaand my life kinda sucks.
After a while I decided on stopping to upload anything to deviantART bc I had such a guilty conscience for not finishing those requests that a while later even disappeared in the endless space of the garbage in my room and where never seen again. lol. not.
and yeah now the story on how I noticed df was wrong with me (should make this a book srsly *sarcastic cough*)
I felt like a piece of shit for like two weeks, and uhm, like, am still trying not to. What is hard if your are stuck in your room while weather is playing it´s first aprils joke like a boss and sends us a gawdam SNOW STORM. yeah thanks for that
Thing is; I´m sick of beeing sick of it. So I´m back and I swear to all existing and not existing gods that that shit will never happen again srsly xD
I have a few plans for rebooting my activity on deviantART and some other stuff to tell you *insert evil laughter here* >:3
but for now
to all those who waited for their requests or for replys or what else is waiting for me in my inbox
I`m still not saying sorry
it seems so wrong XD because it´s never ever enough
here, take this instead
*throws oceans full of guilty-conscience-feels at you*